One whole freaking year since I launched Evolved Wisdom Healing and stepped out of my spiritual closet that I had been hiding in for years.
On November 1 last year, I had been secretly going back and forth all day with doing something big. Something I had been discussing with only my mentor for weeks. Mulling over the decision to stay where I was at or stepping into the next version of myself. A version of myself that was completely new to me and everyone in my life. I knew it was going to cause waves, and that it would change my life as I knew it, but I didn't know to what extent.
Would everyone judge me? How many friends would I lose? What would my family think?
Stomach knots, nausea, excitement, more knots. The whole day I tormented myself with it.
Finally, I decided to just do it. I uploaded the post I had been working on for weeks, and hit share. Then I threw my phone and hid under the covers, as if they would protect me from whatever was happening in the virtual world at that very moment.
I stayed hidden for a while. Imagining all of the scenarios that were taking place inside my phone, on my social media. All of the scenarios, except one. That I would be supported, not shunned. That I would open up my world to a whole slew of possibilities that I could have never imagined in my wildest dreams. The one scenario that I didn't think would actually come true, is the one that happened.
It turns out, I didn't need to worry about the judgments because if they were there, they never came into my reality. My reality was filled with support, with kindness. Even those who couldn't understand what it was I was doing, did their best to understand.
One year later and I sit here in reflection of all of the things I have gained.
Friendships - connection - amazing clients - support - confidence - freedom - expansion - deeper connection to self - strengthened relationship with my Spirit Team - opportunities
The list goes on.
The most amazing thing I've learned over the last year is that our expansion is limitless. If you received a reading from me a year ago, I guarantee your experience would be different today. I could say that about the readings I gave even a week ago too. I've never felt the kinds of shifts that I've felt over the past year. I truly trust in my wisdom now. I truly trust in my connection. I am in awe every single time I tap in. The things that come through never cease to amaze me. The magic in it all is the fuel that keeps me going. That keeps pushing me through the times of doubt. The times where I question whether this is really the path for me. The magic reignites my fire every time.
I can't tell you what the next year has in store for me, but I do know that it will be magical. It will be brilliant and it will be hard. I will be challenged and I will be supported the whole time.
A year is a lot of time, and yet it is just a snippet of our life. If I've learned anything over the last year, I've learned to find the moment. To be in the moment as much as possible. To find presence fully in whatever I'm doing. It's the only way to keep time from moving. Find the present moment and feel into the limitless possibilities for yourself.
What a beautiful life this is, truly.